family

I got into yet another argument with my family member. For some reason, they have a such a stronghold in my life. Family members know you so well(or at least they think they do) and they can break you. I had another argument with my sister yesterday. There are people in this world that I don't like. Unfortunately and sadly, one of them is Audrey. I've tried being her friend, her sister, but the bottom line is she is a difficult person to put it nicely. I don't get along with her. I'm not sure if I ever will or I even want to anymore. Part of me want to write her off, but it's hard to write off family. Life is too short to hold grudges. I try to let the past go, but I can't seem to shake our pasts. I guess what hurts more is, she continues to say hurtful things. Audrey likes to play the blame game. She points the finger so quickly. I don't want to be around her anymore. Why put myself in a place where I'm being criticized, blamed, disrespected, and distrusted? Why? I've come to realize that enough is enough. I want to be with people where I will flourish, be supported, and loved. I have to face reality, I don't see those things happening with my relationship with Audrey. I feel like I have to walk around egg shells around her. Sometimes she is in a good mood and sometimes she is in terrible mood. I don't want to be around people like that. Maybe I need to pray for patience, forgiveness. I'm not sure what, but I know after this weekend, I just like time away from her for awhile. I've decided. It's always good to put things in writing. If things change great, if not, I'm okay with it for now.