cross-country skiing

I tried out cross-country skiing this weekend. I don't like going fast. I don't like going down-hill neither on a bike or skis. I've tried both and didn't like them at all. I enjoy a slow steady pace. I didn't have my digital camera, so no photos from my trip. I had this really old expired film underwater camera. I didn't know how well they would turn out, so I didn't ask Costco to put them on a CD. Some photos turned out better than I expected.

Family...I'm having a hard time emotionally with my mom again. After meeting Luke she has not made any effort to call. She will be visiting at the end of March, but I will not see my parents since they will be staying down in San Jose and coming and leaving during the week. I get the sense she is avoiding me. I know a great feeling to have with my parents. Once I again I feel hurt and rejected. I don't think it has to do with Luke. It's more that she is incapable of showing any type of support. Things that come out of her mouth are usually criticisms. I think that's the Asian way. They hold true to negative reinforcment. It's ingrained in their blood, their upbringing. It really stinks living in this bi-cultural world. In one sense, I appreciate some of my upbringing, in other ways, it really stinks to feel schezonphrenic. I have to act and expect things to be certain way for certain situations, but somethine else in another. I think this will be an undying battle between my mom and me. I know in western culture, I can say forget this, but the ties are strong and I can't easily do that. I'm not sure what to do. My Mandarin abilities are limited, so I can't really express what I want to say in a normal adult conversation. It's good to vent and reflect on a blog.