Being Free

This morning as I walked up from the underground of the public transport to the surface road of the city, I felt like crying, not out of sadness, but out of feeling free. These past 3 days have been renewing, yet traumatic. It is disturbing to learn and accept the fact that it is in our best interest to take a self-defense course.

These past 3 days were physically and emotionally exhausting for me. I'm still aching for it all. I'm having a hard time sleeping because I keep thinking about the techniques we learned and taking note of my mistakes. It's hard for me to let go of my mistakes. It's hard for me to focus on what I did right in the course.

I do feel more confident, but at the same time I'm questioning how long will this feeling last? Is my confidence based on a temporary feeling and the exhilaration of the course? The key thing is will I remember what to do when I need it?

Yes, think on the positive! I do feel free and strong!